It is amazing how good it feels to finally release the anger. It starts with a churning in the stomach, like a small tornado begging to be allowed to increase to a Category 4. And then words that you may never have uttered before and blushed at when you heard others say them, suddenly pour forth from your mouth as if you were meant to say them all along. And although these words (you know which ones I am talking about), don't really express all your feelings, they do make you feel better just for having let them be said out loud. And you don't regret saying them. That is the best feeling.
My anger has been cooking for so long. Longer than anger should be allowed to simmer. On a slow cooker, my anger was spiced up with regret, resentment and loathing. It was basted, salted and peppered with fear. But finally when it had been stirred and stirred over a simmering fire, it was ready to be released upon the world.
And you know what...it tasted good. Like freedom. Like a new day.
But what I have discovered is that there is no reason to simmer your anger. You can microwave it and when the bell signals it's done, you can release it in a more timely manner. Letting a little anger out at a time is good for one's diet. It helps your body, soul and mind. And there is nothing wrong with a little over-processed, microwavable, prepackaged anger.
Of course the slowly simmered anger is more fun to release but some times you can overcook it and then...well then....the phrase 'Before turning the gun on herself' may come into play.
